There he stood and there i stood,watching him in all his grace ,on that cold autumn day.He was a boy every girl would die to have ! Just for his smile ,they wouldn't mind crying all their lives!He knew this ,and felt very special and proud in a way ,but then it stood like a wall preventing him to talk to any girl as a friend ,like a curse ,it would make even the most sensible girl smile and giggle at the sound of his words and act a bit stupid ! Even as he walked past ,all the girls who got a chance to see him would cover their mouths to hide their smiles and silent happiness at having got a chance to see him!
But he was lonely and knew it ! Its not that he didn't have friends ,but they didn't understand him the way he wanted them to !He knew in his heart that the only girl who would talk to him,without a giggle would be the one who would understand him and would be the one girl he would be spending the rest of his life with !Beacuse to him ,love meant understanding and understanding LOVE!
And as the cold autumn wind ,blew silently past us ,and as i watched him stare up at the dark grey sky , I felt it whisper his name and my heart skipped a beat! He looked down slowly and turned his head towards me,suddenly noticing that i was standing there ! My heart somersaulted and yet i remained perfectly calm ! He came up to me and smiled and asked whether I was in his class.I replied with a node and not with a stupid smile or giggle that he usually used to get,even as my ears turned red !!...............................
I always used to feel that I was an outcast ,and could never relate to the world because i was a bit different and did things a bit differently ! People also used to make fun of me and I also thought that i was ugly as no one special would notice me or want to talk to me !I was definitely not your average ,popular ,pretty ,bitchy girl with great friends !because like that boy even i didn't have someone who understood me !!But I'm glad to be "me" because otherwise i wouldn't have found my best friend and the greatest love of my life ,who has warmed up life so much since that cold autumn day!!
This was a story i wrote when i was 14 !
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
"skippers note"
as i go through the pages of my life,
i realize how much i have changed and yet haven't !
how much has changed and yet hasn't ;
what was once thought of and has never become ,
and what was never expected and yet has become,
that's life they would say in short!
an endless sea filled with unimaginable monsters ,
making u think wheatherthe devil would really have had been better!
coz at least he would have been one.
but then again he could have also been many in one;
fight we must ,for to survive that is our only means,
but on whom to draw the sword against well that's a task,
deception at each turn,
the truth often untold,
withheld in my many layers and folds
tactics put to test!
the mind never at rest!!
chaos and confusion around the clock.
the voyage begins my mates;
so grab on to whatever you have,
hold if tight for that's all you have ,
to keep to be alive
against this cold dark endless night,
and believe in nothing but yourself!!
for that's your Trump card against all this unrest that surrounds you!!
for you only hold the key to your destiny,something we take for granted
but oh so true~!
and thus as i realize n write this upon a brand new page.
the lessons i have learned rewinding and flashing in my mind,
each special for it made me learn to live and to breathe,
and most importantly to be me!~though some made me fall through whirlpools of madness,
making me crash against the rocky shores of unknown lands
and making me ride high and low on endless tides which were and unpleasant surprise !
stranded i was on many a barren land,
making me test my will and want to survive
to fulfill my many endless dreams,
i let the stars i saw guide me through even through their most dullest light!
they took form and showed me ,not necessarily the path i wanted ,but my choices and how
every tiny thing most certainly has its price!
how thrills are enticing and yet blinding
and how one should learn to always follow the heart!
how simpleness makes you realize paradise
how beauty can be blinding and is withering,
we must catch what we get ! never complain and move ahead!
how the past is better left buried and future like an unpredictable school of fish
the present forever waiting for us to see!
jewels are most certainly present but buried deep ,
so if u want them u better get ready to take the deep ,long ,choking plunge
and unravel the mysteries of the sea , for now you have become a part of it
ignorance might mean bliss to the fool who thinks so !
look in to yourself and you will know~ !
learn to see with eyes different
that is how you shall gain your vantage,
and know your purpose!
and so my novice traveller decipher what i have said,
for these worlds are as priceless as the good north winds blowing at the right time to guide you ,through smooth and easy to your destination,
in this Bermuda triangle called life! !!!
as i go through the pages of my life,
i realize how much i have changed and yet haven't !
how much has changed and yet hasn't ;
what was once thought of and has never become ,
and what was never expected and yet has become,
that's life they would say in short!
an endless sea filled with unimaginable monsters ,
making u think wheatherthe devil would really have had been better!
coz at least he would have been one.
but then again he could have also been many in one;
fight we must ,for to survive that is our only means,
but on whom to draw the sword against well that's a task,
deception at each turn,
the truth often untold,
withheld in my many layers and folds
tactics put to test!
the mind never at rest!!
chaos and confusion around the clock.
the voyage begins my mates;
so grab on to whatever you have,
hold if tight for that's all you have ,
to keep to be alive
against this cold dark endless night,
and believe in nothing but yourself!!
for that's your Trump card against all this unrest that surrounds you!!
for you only hold the key to your destiny,something we take for granted
but oh so true~!
and thus as i realize n write this upon a brand new page.
the lessons i have learned rewinding and flashing in my mind,
each special for it made me learn to live and to breathe,
and most importantly to be me!~though some made me fall through whirlpools of madness,
making me crash against the rocky shores of unknown lands
and making me ride high and low on endless tides which were and unpleasant surprise !
stranded i was on many a barren land,
making me test my will and want to survive
to fulfill my many endless dreams,
i let the stars i saw guide me through even through their most dullest light!
they took form and showed me ,not necessarily the path i wanted ,but my choices and how
every tiny thing most certainly has its price!
how thrills are enticing and yet blinding
and how one should learn to always follow the heart!
how simpleness makes you realize paradise
how beauty can be blinding and is withering,
we must catch what we get ! never complain and move ahead!
how the past is better left buried and future like an unpredictable school of fish
the present forever waiting for us to see!
jewels are most certainly present but buried deep ,
so if u want them u better get ready to take the deep ,long ,choking plunge
and unravel the mysteries of the sea , for now you have become a part of it
ignorance might mean bliss to the fool who thinks so !
look in to yourself and you will know~ !
learn to see with eyes different
that is how you shall gain your vantage,
and know your purpose!
and so my novice traveller decipher what i have said,
for these worlds are as priceless as the good north winds blowing at the right time to guide you ,through smooth and easy to your destination,
in this Bermuda triangle called life! !!!
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