I take a step forward,
and then i step back,
I'm scared,
lost,
Undone!
I thought I knew the answers and I really did;
But they weren't mine,
no, they were never mine.
So where do I stand now ?
Or rather what am I falling into ?
is it oblivion or simply my vertue
my Nights know just fairy dust
for its the only place I used to know as my solace
now dreams rarely come
its just all a big blank place
Is this my destiny
Or do I have a purpose to my mindless existence
Or shall I just fade into the Unknown
I ask myself
Where is the strength I once knew
And then I ask again, did I ever know ?
For I feel so lifeless
wishing to fade into the space surrounding me
Is there anything to take the pain away ?
Are there any bright lights to lead ?
Can I change what I'v become
or have I become 'me'
I hope to dance again!
At my own beat
making the life's tempo of my slave,
and rising from the ashes i drown myself in
And so I let the devil pass through me,
Today just wasn't his day!
For I see the shining
and thus begin,
MY NEW DAY !
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Monday, December 7, 2009
MAD - "MAKE A DIFFERNCE!!!" =)
I always wanted to join an NGO,but like those promises we take up with great zest and zeal ,and then forget by sweeping them silently under the carpet of our mind ,and letting them lie there.where they turn to the much dreaded "empty promises" .I pretty much let my "NGO PROMISE" suffer the same fate .
Its not that i hadn't tried.I had looked up different NGO's but I just didn't feel confident enough to join ,nor did i feel i could whole heartedly support the various causes that they stood for .Its not that these NGO's weren't good .Its like trying on a pair of jeans , the one's that fit your friend , aren't necessarily going to fit you ,no matter how perfect they look on your friend .
Time had passed,and i joined college,life as i knew it became more hectic and demanding .I had almost given up hope on my "NGO promise" , when an old school friend of mine told me about "MAKE A DIFFERENCE(MAD)" . I loved the idea instantly when i heard it - teach underprivileged kids "english" ,two hours a week.All that "MAD" as a organization asked for was your time and dedication , nothing else. It seemed perfect , just the right thing to fit smoothly into my schedule and as I loved teaching and especially working with kids it seemed like the "perfect NGO fit !" .
The children that MAD targets ,already receive primary education,which might be in english or in the local regional language .But sadly even then we all know that in today's world ENGLISH is not a necessity but a wanted requirement to survive.MAD focuses on teaching ENGLISH , to kids ,so that these children can get good jobs ,and have a brighter future,be it any career they choose!!
In the weeks that followed I was interviewed by MAD , and when the call came for my conformation as a "MAD VOLUNTEER" I was ecstatic.Its one of those moments I will always remember.I was then given my center and the class of kids that I would be teaching , I like to call them "my kids" ,for the simple fact that they feel like family and my responsibility.I was even given a syllabus , containing the curriculum of the course we were supposed to teach . After the initial ice breaking session , classes started full swing .
Now roughly 3 months from the time I was officially christianed a "MAD VOLUNTEER" the experience so far has been extremely 'life-changing' .Yes , I know it sounds like too dramatic word and experience , and yet I can't think of any other word .I joined MAD thinking that I would be 'making a difference' in the lives that I touched , but its the other way round!
Being with these kids has taught be so much about life and about myself. I feel blessed to lead the life that I have lead till now , the education that I have received and the family and friends that I have around me .Athought till recently I would crib about my life ,and the pangs and aches of my world. Being at MAD has taught me to be thankful and enjoy the small joy's of life .That everything does not have to be necessarily be large scale to enjoy .And that to be just fortunate and grateful for the way things are .The children whom I teach ,have taught me how to get in touch with my inner 'kid' and how to have 'fun' again playing small make believes and running around each other.They have reminded me of yesteryears old school memories , which come in surprising flashes bringing back waves of nostalgia and bitter-sweet memories.
But most importantly they have taught me to be grateful for the teachers that I have had and the dedication that they had , but I never had fully acknowledged for now I have realized what a huge task "teaching" is.How much effort and concentration is required to teach a class of students and to try and get the best out of them even when they are not interested! Also , i find myself using the methods ,my teachers once taught me with and I think thats the best tribute that I can give them in my own small way and thus MAKING A BIG DIFFERENCE!!
Its not that i hadn't tried.I had looked up different NGO's but I just didn't feel confident enough to join ,nor did i feel i could whole heartedly support the various causes that they stood for .Its not that these NGO's weren't good .Its like trying on a pair of jeans , the one's that fit your friend , aren't necessarily going to fit you ,no matter how perfect they look on your friend .
Time had passed,and i joined college,life as i knew it became more hectic and demanding .I had almost given up hope on my "NGO promise" , when an old school friend of mine told me about "MAKE A DIFFERENCE(MAD)" . I loved the idea instantly when i heard it - teach underprivileged kids "english" ,two hours a week.All that "MAD" as a organization asked for was your time and dedication , nothing else. It seemed perfect , just the right thing to fit smoothly into my schedule and as I loved teaching and especially working with kids it seemed like the "perfect NGO fit !" .
The children that MAD targets ,already receive primary education,which might be in english or in the local regional language .But sadly even then we all know that in today's world ENGLISH is not a necessity but a wanted requirement to survive.MAD focuses on teaching ENGLISH , to kids ,so that these children can get good jobs ,and have a brighter future,be it any career they choose!!
In the weeks that followed I was interviewed by MAD , and when the call came for my conformation as a "MAD VOLUNTEER" I was ecstatic.Its one of those moments I will always remember.I was then given my center and the class of kids that I would be teaching , I like to call them "my kids" ,for the simple fact that they feel like family and my responsibility.I was even given a syllabus , containing the curriculum of the course we were supposed to teach . After the initial ice breaking session , classes started full swing .
Now roughly 3 months from the time I was officially christianed a "MAD VOLUNTEER" the experience so far has been extremely 'life-changing' .Yes , I know it sounds like too dramatic word and experience , and yet I can't think of any other word .I joined MAD thinking that I would be 'making a difference' in the lives that I touched , but its the other way round!
Being with these kids has taught be so much about life and about myself. I feel blessed to lead the life that I have lead till now , the education that I have received and the family and friends that I have around me .Athought till recently I would crib about my life ,and the pangs and aches of my world. Being at MAD has taught me to be thankful and enjoy the small joy's of life .That everything does not have to be necessarily be large scale to enjoy .And that to be just fortunate and grateful for the way things are .The children whom I teach ,have taught me how to get in touch with my inner 'kid' and how to have 'fun' again playing small make believes and running around each other.They have reminded me of yesteryears old school memories , which come in surprising flashes bringing back waves of nostalgia and bitter-sweet memories.
But most importantly they have taught me to be grateful for the teachers that I have had and the dedication that they had , but I never had fully acknowledged for now I have realized what a huge task "teaching" is.How much effort and concentration is required to teach a class of students and to try and get the best out of them even when they are not interested! Also , i find myself using the methods ,my teachers once taught me with and I think thats the best tribute that I can give them in my own small way and thus MAKING A BIG DIFFERENCE!!
Friday, June 26, 2009
"FAME"
when i was young i remember , at about the age of 7 , i had my first public dance performance ! I was so excited , i didn't know what i was going to do , what was going to happen or how anything that preceded during or after this would ever affect me .All I knew at that point was the word "ANNUAL CONCERT" as being the most magical word i had ever heard till then , something which was so new , even at the utterance of it , it would send shivers of joys through my body , for i just, in my childish mind knew it was "SPECIAL", and that was that , no further questions asked no answers needed or intended to be given . I was going to dance , in front of people ,especially my parents and that was it .
The dance was to be taught by a new teacher , MISS SARAH , a dance instructor ( that was the first time i had ever heard of the word or title and it seemed the 2ND most impressive one after teacher).I remember , thinking MISS SARAH would be someone well beyond the age of my mother or teacher , surprisingly she turned out to be very young even younger than my youngest aunt.She was the prettiest person i had seen , she had lovely long straight hair , and a face which was always glowing and smiling and the kindest eyes ever.
She was going to conduct the whole concert ,and teach different types of dance to different classes and age groups.And after she scanned the whole lot of us , and decide for our II grade class ,which girl would be chosen for the solo performance.
I remember , learning dance with her was pure joy , she taught it to us as if she were a wizard teaching his students the rarest of rare incantations .And it was bliss learning under her .
On the day of the selection process ,she lined all the girls up who wanted to dance ,then she explained she was going to turn on the music and we had to dance spontaneously based on that music, and the best one is the winner for the solo.All of us were scared ,we just thought she would choose at random which girl she wanted , i was hoping it would be me , I felt very strongly connected with her , and in my childish mind i hoped that was enough to guarantee my spot as the winner for the solo.
But this idea of hers seemed alien .Dance spontaneously ?? How , we were II graders we danced when told to dance in a know particular way and how too , not SPONTANEOUSLY , i remember feeling goosebumps and understanding what people meant by "goosebumps" ,because they certainly felt like "GOOSEBUMPS".
And then it started,Mitra please step forward , the first girl was summoned , the music switched on , she was so nervous and scared she just started jumping , and jumped all the way for 5 Min's , till she was told her turn was over .
The 2ND girl was called , Shruti step forward , again the music was switched on , the 2ND girl also jumped but tried to incorporate some form of step which didn't go with the music at all .
"OK ,thank you ",after 3 Min's
"Next Ankita ", Ankita was visibly better ,but not great her steps were better ,but she lost all her grace in her nervousness .
The music , stopped ," OK NEXT "
The procedure went on like that, for 8 other girls , the music changing and the time period given for dancing becoming shorter and shorter , the performances that followed were in the category of "the good ,the bad and the Ugly" , with ugly being the most popular ,it wasn't the girl's fault it was just everything was so new and everyone was nervous and that cost them their performance.
The music stopped for the 13Th girl .
"OK ,NEXT" ,
i couldn't help but notice , MISS Sarah's brow became deeper and deeper , clearly showing a mild bit of frustion , a trait that was so not her.
Then she called out "SUPRIYA" , at that point "Miss Supriya Dubey" , the daughter of our principle was my arch rival and enemy , the Rivalry started by her and the Enmity continued by me ,for the simple fact that she was always give the trump card because she was the Principal's daughter and ,was given preferences in everything even if she didn't deserve it , be it extra marks in orals or the chance to hold the school torch (something unheard of until you reached 4Th grade),or performing the main piece in a group dance , play or choir(even though she couldn't sing) , she was chosen , no one opposed or rather couldn't , the teachers just gave sad smiles to the ones who were beaten down by her ,and assurances of "the next time" .
The music was switched on and she started dancing using the same steps she had learnt from the group dancing , but she had confidence and wasn't in the least bit nervous , and that added to her favour of being the best ,in the group until now.
I remember ,how anger boiled within me , i felt the injustice to my friends and knew , she would go on and on how she beat everyone and I just had to beat her fair and square, period.
The worlds , "OK NEXT" followed and i took my position centre stage, feeling nervous as hell , and if i felt goosebumps before i was trembling now with anticipation , i felt scared and could feel fear creeping up through me ,but the thought of Supriya's smirky -joy -filled - pompous face , made me focus and lose my fright .The music was switched on , it was different from Supriya's , i felt a voice inside telling me -"WAIT,LISTEN,BREATHE,SHOW THEM WHAT YOU GOT" , i followed it , and like something supernatural and yet natural , something surreal ,and yet so real , my body moved , in a way that i had never moved before , i could feel myself turning and doing steps i had never done , I FELT ALIVE , felt the closest i had ever felt to myself , i lived for light years in that moment , and it was FANTASTIC . Then the music stopped and ,my body came to a halt by itself , i didn't even realize i had closed my eyes all along, too absorbed in the moment i had lived to bother who or what was around me except the MUSIC.When i opened them 14 girls came rushing towards me clapping and telling me i was great , i looked up and saw MISS SARAH'S face glow with joy , and Supriya's as Purple as black current and it was , one of the greatest moments of my life.I knew i had nailed it , I knew i was the winner ,and most importantly I knew i beat Supriya fair and square.
The next day , we were all lined up again , so that the results could be announced , MISS SARAH looked at all of us , but with a serious face not her usual cheery one .And said in a short and curt voice , based on yesterday's performance and after a lot of consideration the person who has been chose for the SOLO is , she looked at me and i was so sure 'ALISSA ' would come out but , "SUPRIYA" came out , and she looked away, breaking away from my gaze to Supriya.
That was the day I thoroughly understood what they meant by the phrase "HEARTBROKEN" , i felt betrayed , felt crushed so badly , not because my ego was hurt , but because i knew i had put up the best performance in my life , i had give 200 % or more , and I had never been more sure about anything until now in my life , but this i was , my heart and soul were one in agreement , and it was a huge blow.
I don't remember much ,except Supriya sneering away at me and jumping up and down in pure glee and showing off ,till one of the teachers announced practice and shut her up.I remember i had no heart at all in the practice and , just wishing the tears wouldn't come out and trying to blink them back.At the Conner of my eye i could make out , MISS SARAH silently and nonchalantly watching me .I was too heartbroken even to look at her ,for i felt even she had deserted me.
After practice i was about to run into the girl's bathroom ,when MISS SARAH called out for me , the whole class had gone and we were the only one's left.She looked at me and smiled , i kept looking down , wishing my tears wouldn't spill , she sat down on her knees and pulled my chin up so that she was looking at me straight in the eye now and smiling , a reassuring ,bitter-sweet smile.A stray tear betrayed me and she kindly wiped it ,with her fingers.Whist i started looking down again.
"ALISSA,look at me "
I slowly looked up ,into her beautiful hazel eyes .She looked at me with a stare so intense ,as if to say I'm going to honestly mean what i say, so you better keep your ears open and listen to me ,and don't you dare look away.
"ALISSA,you were by far the best dancer out there yesterday,no correction , you are the best dancer in this whole concert ! YES , in this whole concert , I know you are very young ,and all the other students are older and much more experienced than you, but believe me when I say , you have what it takes to be a Great dancer in the making ,not only a dancer but a human being, we both know why Supriya was chosen , so there is no point in me explaining.But mark my words , you are SPECIAL, the way you moved to the music yesterday proves that . Life is full of hurdles my dear , and today you just encountered one such hurdle , there are many more to come , and a lot more worse than this , BUT REMEMBER ALWAYS ,NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP ! , a great man by the name WINSTON CHURCHILL said these words ,and he rose and made others rise to greatness along with him too , these are the same words with which i live my life, and these are the words I'm telling you .Your dreams, your identity, everything that you are ,that you will always be ,that you were meant to be , your heart knows , follow it , for all this make up YOUR POWER , THEY MAKE UP WHO YOU ARE , and always FIGHT and be YOURSELF !! Even when things don't always go your way , and failure seems to be around the corner ,and everything thing seems dark and hopeless , ALWAYS FOLLOW YOUR HEART! .............................................
I have never forgotten those words ,they are forever etched permanently in my heart and I cherish these words more than anything ! True I didn't perform in the solo ,and Supriya did get the last laugh then .But from that day own I plunged head on in FINDING myself ,in PROVING my existence , in BEING "ME" in the purest way that a person has ever come in contact with their soul ,i have won and lost many wars , and learnt a lot from life , and realized , we all start from the same mark , its how we finish that matters,not where or how we are in between ,for finding out who "YOU ARE" is the most important test to pass in this world ! I've realized , we have to hold on to our dreams ,and BELIEVE , and NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP ,as WINSTON CHURCHILL said , for today I have risen as a phoenix from the ashen state that I had found myself in that day , and won the biggest battle of them all , and am the first person from the whole district to be accepted at "YALE UNIVERSITY" ,on a scholarship for "excellance in DANCE" and am going to make my mark felt in this world! I'm gonna make it to heaven and light up the sky , and I did all this on my own ,my makings beginning with a dream ,and a will to succeed moving me on from there to where I stand today ,
so remember in life "WAIT,LISTEN,BREATHE,and SHOW THEM WHAT YOU GOT -YOUR FAME"
ALISSA ROBBINS
THIS is inspired by the trailor for the movie "FAME"
The dance was to be taught by a new teacher , MISS SARAH , a dance instructor ( that was the first time i had ever heard of the word or title and it seemed the 2ND most impressive one after teacher).I remember , thinking MISS SARAH would be someone well beyond the age of my mother or teacher , surprisingly she turned out to be very young even younger than my youngest aunt.She was the prettiest person i had seen , she had lovely long straight hair , and a face which was always glowing and smiling and the kindest eyes ever.
She was going to conduct the whole concert ,and teach different types of dance to different classes and age groups.And after she scanned the whole lot of us , and decide for our II grade class ,which girl would be chosen for the solo performance.
I remember , learning dance with her was pure joy , she taught it to us as if she were a wizard teaching his students the rarest of rare incantations .And it was bliss learning under her .
On the day of the selection process ,she lined all the girls up who wanted to dance ,then she explained she was going to turn on the music and we had to dance spontaneously based on that music, and the best one is the winner for the solo.All of us were scared ,we just thought she would choose at random which girl she wanted , i was hoping it would be me , I felt very strongly connected with her , and in my childish mind i hoped that was enough to guarantee my spot as the winner for the solo.
But this idea of hers seemed alien .Dance spontaneously ?? How , we were II graders we danced when told to dance in a know particular way and how too , not SPONTANEOUSLY , i remember feeling goosebumps and understanding what people meant by "goosebumps" ,because they certainly felt like "GOOSEBUMPS".
And then it started,Mitra please step forward , the first girl was summoned , the music switched on , she was so nervous and scared she just started jumping , and jumped all the way for 5 Min's , till she was told her turn was over .
The 2ND girl was called , Shruti step forward , again the music was switched on , the 2ND girl also jumped but tried to incorporate some form of step which didn't go with the music at all .
"OK ,thank you ",after 3 Min's
"Next Ankita ", Ankita was visibly better ,but not great her steps were better ,but she lost all her grace in her nervousness .
The music , stopped ," OK NEXT "
The procedure went on like that, for 8 other girls , the music changing and the time period given for dancing becoming shorter and shorter , the performances that followed were in the category of "the good ,the bad and the Ugly" , with ugly being the most popular ,it wasn't the girl's fault it was just everything was so new and everyone was nervous and that cost them their performance.
The music stopped for the 13Th girl .
"OK ,NEXT" ,
i couldn't help but notice , MISS Sarah's brow became deeper and deeper , clearly showing a mild bit of frustion , a trait that was so not her.
Then she called out "SUPRIYA" , at that point "Miss Supriya Dubey" , the daughter of our principle was my arch rival and enemy , the Rivalry started by her and the Enmity continued by me ,for the simple fact that she was always give the trump card because she was the Principal's daughter and ,was given preferences in everything even if she didn't deserve it , be it extra marks in orals or the chance to hold the school torch (something unheard of until you reached 4Th grade),or performing the main piece in a group dance , play or choir(even though she couldn't sing) , she was chosen , no one opposed or rather couldn't , the teachers just gave sad smiles to the ones who were beaten down by her ,and assurances of "the next time" .
The music was switched on and she started dancing using the same steps she had learnt from the group dancing , but she had confidence and wasn't in the least bit nervous , and that added to her favour of being the best ,in the group until now.
I remember ,how anger boiled within me , i felt the injustice to my friends and knew , she would go on and on how she beat everyone and I just had to beat her fair and square, period.
The worlds , "OK NEXT" followed and i took my position centre stage, feeling nervous as hell , and if i felt goosebumps before i was trembling now with anticipation , i felt scared and could feel fear creeping up through me ,but the thought of Supriya's smirky -joy -filled - pompous face , made me focus and lose my fright .The music was switched on , it was different from Supriya's , i felt a voice inside telling me -"WAIT,LISTEN,BREATHE,SHOW THEM WHAT YOU GOT" , i followed it , and like something supernatural and yet natural , something surreal ,and yet so real , my body moved , in a way that i had never moved before , i could feel myself turning and doing steps i had never done , I FELT ALIVE , felt the closest i had ever felt to myself , i lived for light years in that moment , and it was FANTASTIC . Then the music stopped and ,my body came to a halt by itself , i didn't even realize i had closed my eyes all along, too absorbed in the moment i had lived to bother who or what was around me except the MUSIC.When i opened them 14 girls came rushing towards me clapping and telling me i was great , i looked up and saw MISS SARAH'S face glow with joy , and Supriya's as Purple as black current and it was , one of the greatest moments of my life.I knew i had nailed it , I knew i was the winner ,and most importantly I knew i beat Supriya fair and square.
The next day , we were all lined up again , so that the results could be announced , MISS SARAH looked at all of us , but with a serious face not her usual cheery one .And said in a short and curt voice , based on yesterday's performance and after a lot of consideration the person who has been chose for the SOLO is , she looked at me and i was so sure 'ALISSA ' would come out but , "SUPRIYA" came out , and she looked away, breaking away from my gaze to Supriya.
That was the day I thoroughly understood what they meant by the phrase "HEARTBROKEN" , i felt betrayed , felt crushed so badly , not because my ego was hurt , but because i knew i had put up the best performance in my life , i had give 200 % or more , and I had never been more sure about anything until now in my life , but this i was , my heart and soul were one in agreement , and it was a huge blow.
I don't remember much ,except Supriya sneering away at me and jumping up and down in pure glee and showing off ,till one of the teachers announced practice and shut her up.I remember i had no heart at all in the practice and , just wishing the tears wouldn't come out and trying to blink them back.At the Conner of my eye i could make out , MISS SARAH silently and nonchalantly watching me .I was too heartbroken even to look at her ,for i felt even she had deserted me.
After practice i was about to run into the girl's bathroom ,when MISS SARAH called out for me , the whole class had gone and we were the only one's left.She looked at me and smiled , i kept looking down , wishing my tears wouldn't spill , she sat down on her knees and pulled my chin up so that she was looking at me straight in the eye now and smiling , a reassuring ,bitter-sweet smile.A stray tear betrayed me and she kindly wiped it ,with her fingers.Whist i started looking down again.
"ALISSA,look at me "
I slowly looked up ,into her beautiful hazel eyes .She looked at me with a stare so intense ,as if to say I'm going to honestly mean what i say, so you better keep your ears open and listen to me ,and don't you dare look away.
"ALISSA,you were by far the best dancer out there yesterday,no correction , you are the best dancer in this whole concert ! YES , in this whole concert , I know you are very young ,and all the other students are older and much more experienced than you, but believe me when I say , you have what it takes to be a Great dancer in the making ,not only a dancer but a human being, we both know why Supriya was chosen , so there is no point in me explaining.But mark my words , you are SPECIAL, the way you moved to the music yesterday proves that . Life is full of hurdles my dear , and today you just encountered one such hurdle , there are many more to come , and a lot more worse than this , BUT REMEMBER ALWAYS ,NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP ! , a great man by the name WINSTON CHURCHILL said these words ,and he rose and made others rise to greatness along with him too , these are the same words with which i live my life, and these are the words I'm telling you .Your dreams, your identity, everything that you are ,that you will always be ,that you were meant to be , your heart knows , follow it , for all this make up YOUR POWER , THEY MAKE UP WHO YOU ARE , and always FIGHT and be YOURSELF !! Even when things don't always go your way , and failure seems to be around the corner ,and everything thing seems dark and hopeless , ALWAYS FOLLOW YOUR HEART! .............................................
I have never forgotten those words ,they are forever etched permanently in my heart and I cherish these words more than anything ! True I didn't perform in the solo ,and Supriya did get the last laugh then .But from that day own I plunged head on in FINDING myself ,in PROVING my existence , in BEING "ME" in the purest way that a person has ever come in contact with their soul ,i have won and lost many wars , and learnt a lot from life , and realized , we all start from the same mark , its how we finish that matters,not where or how we are in between ,for finding out who "YOU ARE" is the most important test to pass in this world ! I've realized , we have to hold on to our dreams ,and BELIEVE , and NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP ,as WINSTON CHURCHILL said , for today I have risen as a phoenix from the ashen state that I had found myself in that day , and won the biggest battle of them all , and am the first person from the whole district to be accepted at "YALE UNIVERSITY" ,on a scholarship for "excellance in DANCE" and am going to make my mark felt in this world! I'm gonna make it to heaven and light up the sky , and I did all this on my own ,my makings beginning with a dream ,and a will to succeed moving me on from there to where I stand today ,
so remember in life "WAIT,LISTEN,BREATHE,and SHOW THEM WHAT YOU GOT -YOUR FAME"
ALISSA ROBBINS
THIS is inspired by the trailor for the movie "FAME"
Monday, June 22, 2009
"MONA LISA'S SMILE"
have u ever heard of "Mona Lisa's smile" ??
i never did ,
but i knew ,what is was , the day i met u!
they say,
its rare ,few know about it ,
and even among those who know about it,
few get to see it ,
so what does it mean ??
it means ,
that I'm the luckiest guy on earth ,
cause I've witnessed it more ,
than any other known mortal has ,
and felt its magic ,
and never ,does it fail ,
to cast its charm over me ,
and i keep falling for it ,
over and over again ,
and never get tired of its effects ;
at all!
have you any idea ,
what you've done to me ??
your grace is mystic ,
whenever I think of you,
I'm reduced to the state of a beaming fool ,
smiling , all day long ,
even when I'm at my worst ,
because ,just the thought of you,
can cause me to forget my sorrow ,
whatever its reason,big or small,
and strive to survive ,
and get through the day !
no matter how hard it has been ,
or how pessimistic my chances seem,
you do realize ,
you've caused me to act , entirely love stoned,
and never feel bad about it ,
i never knew i had it within me ,
to become someone else ,
to barley recognize myself ,
cause when I'm around you,
i hardly know who i am ,
all i know is i like the person i become ,
for ,u don't know how crazy u drive that person,
when you show him ,
your, "Mona Lisa's smile "
have ,you ever realized ,
how blue ,the skies become ,
how bright the nights seem ;with their stars
twinkling like fairies dancing away,
how fresh the air seems ,and,
how vibrant colours look ,
how music ,seems to form suddenly,
out of nothingness,
how the world seems suddenly alive,
vibrant , full of zest and zeal ,
and how happiness seems to erupt from within me,
when you show me your
"Mona Lisa's smile "
your the last of your kind ,
my dear Mona Lisa,
whenever you are around me ,
u always bring utter and pure bliss,
and ,whenever you are within, the sphere of my existence ,
I'm forever elevated and ,in another higher dimension,
you are, always and will eternally be in my heart,
the power you have over me is unbreakable ,
if this is what they mean ,
when they talk about the supremacy of ,
"the Mona Lisa's smile" ,
know that,I'm thoroughly,completely and heavily under its enchantmeant,
and I'm never ever letting you go,
whether you like it or not ,
and i am forever yours ,
just promise you'll never leave ,
cause you don't realize ,
how you steel my heart
and take my breath away ,
every single time that you show me your ,
"Mona Lisa's smile "
as usual this is again based on my friend's "lovestory" ! :)
i never did ,
but i knew ,what is was , the day i met u!
they say,
its rare ,few know about it ,
and even among those who know about it,
few get to see it ,
so what does it mean ??
it means ,
that I'm the luckiest guy on earth ,
cause I've witnessed it more ,
than any other known mortal has ,
and felt its magic ,
and never ,does it fail ,
to cast its charm over me ,
and i keep falling for it ,
over and over again ,
and never get tired of its effects ;
at all!
have you any idea ,
what you've done to me ??
your grace is mystic ,
whenever I think of you,
I'm reduced to the state of a beaming fool ,
smiling , all day long ,
even when I'm at my worst ,
because ,just the thought of you,
can cause me to forget my sorrow ,
whatever its reason,big or small,
and strive to survive ,
and get through the day !
no matter how hard it has been ,
or how pessimistic my chances seem,
you do realize ,
you've caused me to act , entirely love stoned,
and never feel bad about it ,
i never knew i had it within me ,
to become someone else ,
to barley recognize myself ,
cause when I'm around you,
i hardly know who i am ,
all i know is i like the person i become ,
for ,u don't know how crazy u drive that person,
when you show him ,
your, "Mona Lisa's smile "
have ,you ever realized ,
how blue ,the skies become ,
how bright the nights seem ;with their stars
twinkling like fairies dancing away,
how fresh the air seems ,and,
how vibrant colours look ,
how music ,seems to form suddenly,
out of nothingness,
how the world seems suddenly alive,
vibrant , full of zest and zeal ,
and how happiness seems to erupt from within me,
when you show me your
"Mona Lisa's smile "
your the last of your kind ,
my dear Mona Lisa,
whenever you are around me ,
u always bring utter and pure bliss,
and ,whenever you are within, the sphere of my existence ,
I'm forever elevated and ,in another higher dimension,
you are, always and will eternally be in my heart,
the power you have over me is unbreakable ,
if this is what they mean ,
when they talk about the supremacy of ,
"the Mona Lisa's smile" ,
know that,I'm thoroughly,completely and heavily under its enchantmeant,
and I'm never ever letting you go,
whether you like it or not ,
and i am forever yours ,
just promise you'll never leave ,
cause you don't realize ,
how you steel my heart
and take my breath away ,
every single time that you show me your ,
"Mona Lisa's smile "
as usual this is again based on my friend's "lovestory" ! :)
Thursday, June 18, 2009
"MEANT TO BE"
we stand alone,
i look at you and you look at me ,
we both know ,
this is meant to be ,
our being at this stage ,
and realizing that our hearts beat ;at the same pace and as one,
for the same feelings of the other are hidden inside ,
the chambers cushioned ,
with the backup of our minds ,
telling us this is right ,
this is meant to be .
how and when we came to know
this particular feeling is the one ,
which we all as humans search for,
in our unknown quest to fulfill ourselves ,
i don't know ,nor do i want to know ,
let it be that perfect mystery solved,
a fulfledged miracle witnessed ,
and let me feel privileged to know ,
god thought me lucky ,
to come across you ,on the crossroads of my life
and let me know in his own way,
that ,
this is meant to be
you don't ,
have to tell me ,
i know ,
what you feel,what you want ,what you need
i can feel it,
and don't worry ,
I'll always be there ,
you never have to ask,
just turn around , for i always am watching over you
i know ,
its the same for what you feel for me too,
although you try to hide it,
its plainly written ,
in your eyes ,and voice !
don't worry its my special secret,
i wont let anyone know ,
i wont even tell you,
but nonetheless ,
my heart feels even more strongly now ,
that ,this is meant to be
we both understand each other perfectly,
our dreams ,our ideas , our thoughts
flow through invisible channels between us ,
creating a language ,only we know
a language that , can cross boundaries ,
no matter how far ,or wide ,
thick or thin,
rugged or clear ,
telling us ,
this is meant to be
know ,that i never want to lose you,
for even if i force myself to think of such a thought
all i see ,as a possible future is darkness ,
darker than black,
for you are the only light in my life,
the light that constantly guides me everyday ,
and shows me the right way ,
the light without which ,
I'm utterly lost in this flip sided world,
and then only chaos and destruction would fill it!
we both have our dreams ,we both want to fly,
feel for ourselves what touching the sky is like,
and not let go of what we have ,
for only a cherished few, get this chance,
and believe me when i say,
i gonna try my best and keep it this way ,
no matter what i have to go through,
or give away ,
for if ever there was a purpose in my life ,
i never knew it ,
until the day i met you,
and from that day on ,
whenever i see you ,
or am near you ,
or hear your voice ,
or get your message,
i know that this is ,was ,and is
forever meant to be!
this is yet again inspired by my friend (uv's) "lovestory" ;)
i look at you and you look at me ,
we both know ,
this is meant to be ,
our being at this stage ,
and realizing that our hearts beat ;at the same pace and as one,
for the same feelings of the other are hidden inside ,
the chambers cushioned ,
with the backup of our minds ,
telling us this is right ,
this is meant to be .
how and when we came to know
this particular feeling is the one ,
which we all as humans search for,
in our unknown quest to fulfill ourselves ,
i don't know ,nor do i want to know ,
let it be that perfect mystery solved,
a fulfledged miracle witnessed ,
and let me feel privileged to know ,
god thought me lucky ,
to come across you ,on the crossroads of my life
and let me know in his own way,
that ,
this is meant to be
you don't ,
have to tell me ,
i know ,
what you feel,what you want ,what you need
i can feel it,
and don't worry ,
I'll always be there ,
you never have to ask,
just turn around , for i always am watching over you
i know ,
its the same for what you feel for me too,
although you try to hide it,
its plainly written ,
in your eyes ,and voice !
don't worry its my special secret,
i wont let anyone know ,
i wont even tell you,
but nonetheless ,
my heart feels even more strongly now ,
that ,this is meant to be
we both understand each other perfectly,
our dreams ,our ideas , our thoughts
flow through invisible channels between us ,
creating a language ,only we know
a language that , can cross boundaries ,
no matter how far ,or wide ,
thick or thin,
rugged or clear ,
telling us ,
this is meant to be
know ,that i never want to lose you,
for even if i force myself to think of such a thought
all i see ,as a possible future is darkness ,
darker than black,
for you are the only light in my life,
the light that constantly guides me everyday ,
and shows me the right way ,
the light without which ,
I'm utterly lost in this flip sided world,
and then only chaos and destruction would fill it!
we both have our dreams ,we both want to fly,
feel for ourselves what touching the sky is like,
and not let go of what we have ,
for only a cherished few, get this chance,
and believe me when i say,
i gonna try my best and keep it this way ,
no matter what i have to go through,
or give away ,
for if ever there was a purpose in my life ,
i never knew it ,
until the day i met you,
and from that day on ,
whenever i see you ,
or am near you ,
or hear your voice ,
or get your message,
i know that this is ,was ,and is
forever meant to be!
this is yet again inspired by my friend (uv's) "lovestory" ;)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
"UNDER MY UMBRELLA "
"UNDER MY UMBERELLA!"
"becoz when the sun shines we'll shine together!
told u i'll be here forever ,
said i'll always be your friend ,
took an oath i'ma sitck it out till the end!
now thats raining more than ever;
know that we still have each other ,
you can stand under my umbrella ,
you can stand ;
Under my umbrella ,
ella ella eh eh eh ,
under my umbrella,
eh ...eh ...eh ,..a ...ehe eh ! ";
Man i love this song ! Its been two years since i first heard it , exactly 731 days have passed (leap year included! ) and over that period ,i've heard it over a zillion times over but ,even then whenever i hear this song i always fall in love with it over and over again !!
They say the more and more u listen to any song the more likely your gonna get extremely bored with it ! This concept i have personally experimented with and found to be extremely true ,but the law of constant repetition does not hold good with this song AT ALL!! Either the song is exceptionally good or its got something else merged with it that makes it all the more special!! In my case both hold true !
I remember exactly 731 days ago, monsoon June 2007 , I'm 17 going on 18 , a month has passed since my birthday , i walk down the road , humming away in my pathetic musical voice.For some reason rihanna just doesn't quit playing inside of me and i don't mind it one bit !! My horribly bad vocals being drowned by the gentle sound of soft rain drops splattering away ,against the plastic blue sheet of my umbrella.
The song couldn't have been more perfect except for the basic fact that i had no one to keep under my umbrella !! Huh...... i think 17 yrs have passed and not a single relationship ,I don't know if i shall be "the dancing queen " this year ,i have no reason to dance and looking at my extremely tight muscles which need a whole personal daily session of physiotherapy to bring back to normal, my future on the dance floor doesn't seem that bright!! Year 16 was anything but sweet , aaah .....well lets not walk back down memory lane again ! The world out there ,is fresh and new ,and well lets explore that !
And i couldn't have chosen a more perfect day for it !! Its monsoon season , and i love monsoons ! And theres nothing better than an "Indian Monsoon"!! The clouds cover up the sky in perfect puffs of shady gray !! The sun is hidden , its existence temporarily forgotten. The wind has pleasantly cooled as, opposed to its hot headed summer nature . The showers the previous day ,aiding the cooling process dictated by the winds . The air smells clean ,new as if suddenly bright after a nice long bath! At corners moss,shrubs ,creepers and flowers dare to show their existence ,and what a lovely site it is . The mood is subdued ,lazy , clear, sleepy , pleasant , it feels as if nature is giving us one of her shy ,sleepy seductive smiles ,and no one is complaining cause everyone to too busy falling in love with it ! And so was I!
Its on such days that i dare to take my umbrella out , which otherwise is left to rot under a blanket of even brown dust below the hallway cupboard. Such days were meant to be spent out , to go for long walks , under the sky without any destination in mind . Like the English , i dared to venture out umbrella in hand being my only shield ,but as i do not live in the country side a walk to the local park and back should suffice for "thy lovely walk along the country side on a rainy day " , where introspection can be given its yearly justification .
It was perfect that day , never have i appreciated my neighborhood more , although year round i curse it for its increasing traffic along the roads ,which includes the occasional fast car hits slow car /innocent by-standard accidents ,where u can see the perpetrators getting away at top speed and an audience always present to watch the drama and give their 2 bit.The local college hall playing third rate bollywood songs (remixs included !).And God forbid those dastardly singing competitions along with the monologues .Seriously i wonder how jobless are these people to have gatherings year round !I even gave up trying to correlate them to any national holiday or significance .
Along with the "pagal bhikari " thats the name me and my brother gave to the beggar who admirably has survived for the past 3 yrs and running strong ,by just screaming his head off in sessions lasting from a few minutes to hours on the various curse words in his dictionary ,which mind you are not pretty ! But the strategy works , we Indians hate being cursed even if it is from a random mad man for we believe it will come true , so out of fear he is fed ,clothed and even given an occasional drink by my many rich bungalow neighbors ,their servants and the local run down shack-tea house by the canal! By the way he lives by the banks on the canal and surfaces on top every day and then disappears !
Maybe he's batman for all we know !Cause once i tried looking down from the bordered pavement to see where this guy could even think of taking homage besides such stinking and unhealthy waters , but i couldn't see anything worth inhabiting and then well, i had to run becoz when i looked up again he was just a foot away from me !Although he has never been documented to have hurt anyone (although he claims to do so in his shouting sessions) , i did not want to be the first for him to prove his claims !! Guess we'll never know the truth about Batman or the "pagal bhikari"!
Hm..........Coming back to the original story ,well there i was walking , that day just went on becoming more and more perfect ,by the minute. There was absolutely no traffic save for a few cyclists,2 wheelers and an occasional car , just swiftly moving along ,breaking the wind and the silence swiftly for a change. It started to drizzle lightly.Even the pagal bhikari was nowhere to be seen ,(maybe residing in his secret lair ),that itself was cause to celebrate.Where he actually was , we’ll never know the truth.
At 7 .30 on a Sunday morning ,for a morning walker nothing could have been better .Especially in my neighborhood .I passed many a morning walker (reference to Wordsworth!)
some with partners ,
some old some young,
some in pairs ,
some with a son (had to rhyme it with something!)
some with their dogs !!
As the rain made beats against the waterproof plastic , i began humming my current favorite song : umberella !
i was now in a quite lane , where no one but me was present , straight ahead the circular red outline of the park was visible , my destination ! I always feel its the journey not the destination that matters , and if my short journey was extremely blissful so far i had no idea it would become much more adventurous and better! ;P.
It began to rain lightly,I was walking , humming and rolling my umbrella !
singing ,
"becoz when the sun shines we'll shine together!
told u i'll be here forever ,
said i'll always be your friend ,
took an oath i'ma sitck it out till the end,
now thats raining more than ever;know that we still have each other ,
you can stand under my umbrella ,
you can stand under my ..........................................................................
“Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmoooooooooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,............
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmooooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
,MOVE ,MOVE ,MOVE,.............HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatoooooooooooooooooooooooo,
HATO! ”,
I turned suddenly ,mortified by the screams , and the sight i saw was strange and alarming.Apparently 3 dogs,a bulldog , a German Shepard and i don't know how it got there ,but a dachshund ,were barking and ferociously chasing an entity moving on wheels it seemed ,From what i could decipher through the moving rain drops . It took me well over a minute to realize that the "move ,hato " wordings uttered where meant for non other that yours truly!For the procession was about to collide straight into me , the entity on wheels being the first !!
By the time I did realize this it was too late.I was about to crash and burn and nothing was going to stop it !! When i had given up all hope and was about to make the sign of the cross and let god take matters in his holy hands !
The entity screamed "JUMP!!" ,
At that point i pretty much had no other option than jumping (now when i come to think of it , i guessed i looked like a moving cartoon,plastic umbrella and all! ) , and before i knew it i was rolling it seemed in air.The wind talking to me . As i was preparing for a crash , my eyes were closed , to check whether i was still on earth or heaven i opened my eyes , and found myself staring into the blue shielded eyes of the helmet clad entity .
"just a sec " was ,his reply of acknowledgement.
"okay , i said" ,!seriously did i have an option ! )
i then realized that i was actually being supported ,rather carried in his arms ,and he was on skates . The dogs were gaining speed behind us and he too sprang forward with all his might . My umbrella was now shielding us from the rain which had also gained speed . We seemed to be going round the park ! (what a site we would have been!)
He rolled forward with all the speed he could muster , we reached the park wall ,the dogs still behind us .
"JUmp" ,he said for the second time ,after gently landing my feet on solid ground!
Of all the walls i could think of jumping over in my life , the park wall was definitely on the bottom 10 !
I obeyed none the less ,rational thinking had lost its meaning !
I landed on the other side after being catapulted across the 1.5 mt long wall with the help of his hands which acted like a push up . He followed me ,but mid way stopped ,seemed the dachshund had taken the short cut ,while we were going round ,as its short legs didn't allow it the leverage to run around the whole park .IT was pulling on his jeans on the other side .Now it was my turn to act like a HERO and i pulled him from the other side playing tug of war with the dog , across the wall (as i said before, there was no time for rational thought ! ) , i succeed and fell on the grass and he landed on top of me , 30 cms of air separating us ; his helmet flew along with the attache goggles showing me he had a human face ,and the umbrella landed on top of us .
Both of us were "under the umbrella " with it raining more than ever !
Embarrassed we got up , and sat below a tree,under the umbrella on a park bench.Introductions we made. He wasn't from outer space ,but just the new neighborhood kid .Who wanted to earn a few extra decent bucks by offering to take the neighbor's dogs for morning walks along with taking a joy ride .But because he had never done it before ,he ended up skating over all the dog's tails ,causing them to run behind him menacingly!
The park was actually closed that day ,for a reason i never cared to find out so the dogs barked their heads of with indignation seeing their pray survive and ultimately got wet and tired and ran back home !
But for me well , i kinda had "my first date " , which was "Amazing " in every sense !! That year i was a "dancing queen" !I had all the reason to dance with joy for i found the reason to do so in the boy besides me on that bench !
HE is still besides me , we have gone through a lot of highs and lows !But the journeys we have had were worth it for today we are on a conman destination which will merge our destinies forever !
And from that time , today and forever ,
I permanently have someone "under my umbrella"!!
!Not your typical ,ideal 1st date I must say!! ;p)
"becoz when the sun shines we'll shine together!
told u i'll be here forever ,
said i'll always be your friend ,
took an oath i'ma sitck it out till the end!
now thats raining more than ever;
know that we still have each other ,
you can stand under my umbrella ,
you can stand ;
Under my umbrella ,
ella ella eh eh eh ,
under my umbrella,
eh ...eh ...eh ,..a ...ehe eh ! ";
Man i love this song ! Its been two years since i first heard it , exactly 731 days have passed (leap year included! ) and over that period ,i've heard it over a zillion times over but ,even then whenever i hear this song i always fall in love with it over and over again !!
They say the more and more u listen to any song the more likely your gonna get extremely bored with it ! This concept i have personally experimented with and found to be extremely true ,but the law of constant repetition does not hold good with this song AT ALL!! Either the song is exceptionally good or its got something else merged with it that makes it all the more special!! In my case both hold true !
I remember exactly 731 days ago, monsoon June 2007 , I'm 17 going on 18 , a month has passed since my birthday , i walk down the road , humming away in my pathetic musical voice.For some reason rihanna just doesn't quit playing inside of me and i don't mind it one bit !! My horribly bad vocals being drowned by the gentle sound of soft rain drops splattering away ,against the plastic blue sheet of my umbrella.
The song couldn't have been more perfect except for the basic fact that i had no one to keep under my umbrella !! Huh...... i think 17 yrs have passed and not a single relationship ,I don't know if i shall be "the dancing queen " this year ,i have no reason to dance and looking at my extremely tight muscles which need a whole personal daily session of physiotherapy to bring back to normal, my future on the dance floor doesn't seem that bright!! Year 16 was anything but sweet , aaah .....well lets not walk back down memory lane again ! The world out there ,is fresh and new ,and well lets explore that !
And i couldn't have chosen a more perfect day for it !! Its monsoon season , and i love monsoons ! And theres nothing better than an "Indian Monsoon"!! The clouds cover up the sky in perfect puffs of shady gray !! The sun is hidden , its existence temporarily forgotten. The wind has pleasantly cooled as, opposed to its hot headed summer nature . The showers the previous day ,aiding the cooling process dictated by the winds . The air smells clean ,new as if suddenly bright after a nice long bath! At corners moss,shrubs ,creepers and flowers dare to show their existence ,and what a lovely site it is . The mood is subdued ,lazy , clear, sleepy , pleasant , it feels as if nature is giving us one of her shy ,sleepy seductive smiles ,and no one is complaining cause everyone to too busy falling in love with it ! And so was I!
Its on such days that i dare to take my umbrella out , which otherwise is left to rot under a blanket of even brown dust below the hallway cupboard. Such days were meant to be spent out , to go for long walks , under the sky without any destination in mind . Like the English , i dared to venture out umbrella in hand being my only shield ,but as i do not live in the country side a walk to the local park and back should suffice for "thy lovely walk along the country side on a rainy day " , where introspection can be given its yearly justification .
It was perfect that day , never have i appreciated my neighborhood more , although year round i curse it for its increasing traffic along the roads ,which includes the occasional fast car hits slow car /innocent by-standard accidents ,where u can see the perpetrators getting away at top speed and an audience always present to watch the drama and give their 2 bit.The local college hall playing third rate bollywood songs (remixs included !).And God forbid those dastardly singing competitions along with the monologues .Seriously i wonder how jobless are these people to have gatherings year round !I even gave up trying to correlate them to any national holiday or significance .
Along with the "pagal bhikari " thats the name me and my brother gave to the beggar who admirably has survived for the past 3 yrs and running strong ,by just screaming his head off in sessions lasting from a few minutes to hours on the various curse words in his dictionary ,which mind you are not pretty ! But the strategy works , we Indians hate being cursed even if it is from a random mad man for we believe it will come true , so out of fear he is fed ,clothed and even given an occasional drink by my many rich bungalow neighbors ,their servants and the local run down shack-tea house by the canal! By the way he lives by the banks on the canal and surfaces on top every day and then disappears !
Maybe he's batman for all we know !Cause once i tried looking down from the bordered pavement to see where this guy could even think of taking homage besides such stinking and unhealthy waters , but i couldn't see anything worth inhabiting and then well, i had to run becoz when i looked up again he was just a foot away from me !Although he has never been documented to have hurt anyone (although he claims to do so in his shouting sessions) , i did not want to be the first for him to prove his claims !! Guess we'll never know the truth about Batman or the "pagal bhikari"!
Hm..........Coming back to the original story ,well there i was walking , that day just went on becoming more and more perfect ,by the minute. There was absolutely no traffic save for a few cyclists,2 wheelers and an occasional car , just swiftly moving along ,breaking the wind and the silence swiftly for a change. It started to drizzle lightly.Even the pagal bhikari was nowhere to be seen ,(maybe residing in his secret lair ),that itself was cause to celebrate.Where he actually was , we’ll never know the truth.
At 7 .30 on a Sunday morning ,for a morning walker nothing could have been better .Especially in my neighborhood .I passed many a morning walker (reference to Wordsworth!)
some with partners ,
some old some young,
some in pairs ,
some with a son (had to rhyme it with something!)
some with their dogs !!
As the rain made beats against the waterproof plastic , i began humming my current favorite song : umberella !
i was now in a quite lane , where no one but me was present , straight ahead the circular red outline of the park was visible , my destination ! I always feel its the journey not the destination that matters , and if my short journey was extremely blissful so far i had no idea it would become much more adventurous and better! ;P.
It began to rain lightly,I was walking , humming and rolling my umbrella !
singing ,
"becoz when the sun shines we'll shine together!
told u i'll be here forever ,
said i'll always be your friend ,
took an oath i'ma sitck it out till the end,
now thats raining more than ever;know that we still have each other ,
you can stand under my umbrella ,
you can stand under my ..........................................................................
“Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmoooooooooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,............
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmooooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
,MOVE ,MOVE ,MOVE,.............HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatoooooooooooooooooooooooo,
HATO! ”,
I turned suddenly ,mortified by the screams , and the sight i saw was strange and alarming.Apparently 3 dogs,a bulldog , a German Shepard and i don't know how it got there ,but a dachshund ,were barking and ferociously chasing an entity moving on wheels it seemed ,From what i could decipher through the moving rain drops . It took me well over a minute to realize that the "move ,hato " wordings uttered where meant for non other that yours truly!For the procession was about to collide straight into me , the entity on wheels being the first !!
By the time I did realize this it was too late.I was about to crash and burn and nothing was going to stop it !! When i had given up all hope and was about to make the sign of the cross and let god take matters in his holy hands !
The entity screamed "JUMP!!" ,
At that point i pretty much had no other option than jumping (now when i come to think of it , i guessed i looked like a moving cartoon,plastic umbrella and all! ) , and before i knew it i was rolling it seemed in air.The wind talking to me . As i was preparing for a crash , my eyes were closed , to check whether i was still on earth or heaven i opened my eyes , and found myself staring into the blue shielded eyes of the helmet clad entity .
"just a sec " was ,his reply of acknowledgement.
"okay , i said" ,!seriously did i have an option ! )
i then realized that i was actually being supported ,rather carried in his arms ,and he was on skates . The dogs were gaining speed behind us and he too sprang forward with all his might . My umbrella was now shielding us from the rain which had also gained speed . We seemed to be going round the park ! (what a site we would have been!)
He rolled forward with all the speed he could muster , we reached the park wall ,the dogs still behind us .
"JUmp" ,he said for the second time ,after gently landing my feet on solid ground!
Of all the walls i could think of jumping over in my life , the park wall was definitely on the bottom 10 !
I obeyed none the less ,rational thinking had lost its meaning !
I landed on the other side after being catapulted across the 1.5 mt long wall with the help of his hands which acted like a push up . He followed me ,but mid way stopped ,seemed the dachshund had taken the short cut ,while we were going round ,as its short legs didn't allow it the leverage to run around the whole park .IT was pulling on his jeans on the other side .Now it was my turn to act like a HERO and i pulled him from the other side playing tug of war with the dog , across the wall (as i said before, there was no time for rational thought ! ) , i succeed and fell on the grass and he landed on top of me , 30 cms of air separating us ; his helmet flew along with the attache goggles showing me he had a human face ,and the umbrella landed on top of us .
Both of us were "under the umbrella " with it raining more than ever !
Embarrassed we got up , and sat below a tree,under the umbrella on a park bench.Introductions we made. He wasn't from outer space ,but just the new neighborhood kid .Who wanted to earn a few extra decent bucks by offering to take the neighbor's dogs for morning walks along with taking a joy ride .But because he had never done it before ,he ended up skating over all the dog's tails ,causing them to run behind him menacingly!
The park was actually closed that day ,for a reason i never cared to find out so the dogs barked their heads of with indignation seeing their pray survive and ultimately got wet and tired and ran back home !
But for me well , i kinda had "my first date " , which was "Amazing " in every sense !! That year i was a "dancing queen" !I had all the reason to dance with joy for i found the reason to do so in the boy besides me on that bench !
HE is still besides me , we have gone through a lot of highs and lows !But the journeys we have had were worth it for today we are on a conman destination which will merge our destinies forever !
And from that time , today and forever ,
I permanently have someone "under my umbrella"!!
!Not your typical ,ideal 1st date I must say!! ;p)
Thursday, November 6, 2008
"LIFE"
life's a struggle ,
and isn't that so true,
destiny's a prophecy;
our fate is in our hands!
our choices define us ,
our virtues continuously are put to test!
our goal is our dream ,
the ultimate quest,
each turn we take makes us spin;
testing us from within,
our soul is constantly up for sale!
through the journey we take,
decisions are double tested ,
spirits are cross fired ,
truth is a dutch!
fighting is a must to survive,
to strive , to perform,
to touch the sky !
relationships r tested ,
failed and strained ,
heaven's overrated,
hell's the present state,
stars spill guiding in different colours!
days breeze by and its up to us to discover,
our true calling !
our definition ,
our meaning!
and isn't that so true,
destiny's a prophecy;
our fate is in our hands!
our choices define us ,
our virtues continuously are put to test!
our goal is our dream ,
the ultimate quest,
each turn we take makes us spin;
testing us from within,
our soul is constantly up for sale!
through the journey we take,
decisions are double tested ,
spirits are cross fired ,
truth is a dutch!
fighting is a must to survive,
to strive , to perform,
to touch the sky !
relationships r tested ,
failed and strained ,
heaven's overrated,
hell's the present state,
stars spill guiding in different colours!
days breeze by and its up to us to discover,
our true calling !
our definition ,
our meaning!
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